There will be adventures in life. There will be love in life. There will be happiness in life. There will be sorrow in life. There will be hatred in life. There will be envy in life. There will be all six. All six of these elements will be thrown at you. But if one of them is a knife, just duck or move to the side. - Grace Gordon
Monday, May 23, 2011
day 4: a habit that you wish you didn't have
This one is a lot tougher. Mainly because I'm perfect, but I guess I'd say that whenever I feel something I feel is dumb in any way, I brood over it for days and sometimes weekz. That is a very bad habit I wish I didn't have.
I am the same way! Only, I don't think its a bad habit as much as I used to... I use it as an opportunity to learn something about me.
Most recently, I had a friend ask what a true friend was... And the answers she got were really upsetting to me. I went through anger at their stupid answers, then trying to find if any of their answers had any good to them, and finally to what I believe a friend is. The whole process took me two days... Two nights of not sleeping very well, because I couldn't stop thinking, and all day discussing it with different people, and writing in my journal, and... two days of obsessing.
Now that I'm through it, I've learned some very powerful things. I'm a different person. It was worth the two days... There's my take on your bad habit that happens to also be a habit of mine. :)
As of right now, it's a very negative downward spin until I can distract myself from it. Sometimes I can find something positive from it. But most of the time it's a slip of the tongue that didn't make sense that can haunt me for years.
There are things that people say to me that go straight in and take root. In the past, I have been very fertile ground for seeds of, "You're not worthy," so any time anyone said something even close, it was a tree before I even knew a seed had been planted.
I've had to change me so that I wasn't fertile ground. And in the meantime, I had to get away from any place those seeds could be planted.
I have no idea if its the same things for you, or if its even close... That's just what I thought of when I read your last comment.
By me, like when I was 12, I told one of my cousins that I was going to kiss them instead of kick them. In my head they have never forgotten and that and it still affects the way they see me. I've always been good at forgetting the things other people say...especially if it was a compliment.
I am the same way! Only, I don't think its a bad habit as much as I used to... I use it as an opportunity to learn something about me.
ReplyDeleteMost recently, I had a friend ask what a true friend was... And the answers she got were really upsetting to me. I went through anger at their stupid answers, then trying to find if any of their answers had any good to them, and finally to what I believe a friend is. The whole process took me two days... Two nights of not sleeping very well, because I couldn't stop thinking, and all day discussing it with different people, and writing in my journal, and... two days of obsessing.
Now that I'm through it, I've learned some very powerful things. I'm a different person. It was worth the two days... There's my take on your bad habit that happens to also be a habit of mine. :)
As of right now, it's a very negative downward spin until I can distract myself from it. Sometimes I can find something positive from it. But most of the time it's a slip of the tongue that didn't make sense that can haunt me for years.
ReplyDeleteA slip of the tongue by you? Or someone else?
ReplyDeleteThere are things that people say to me that go straight in and take root. In the past, I have been very fertile ground for seeds of, "You're not worthy," so any time anyone said something even close, it was a tree before I even knew a seed had been planted.
I've had to change me so that I wasn't fertile ground. And in the meantime, I had to get away from any place those seeds could be planted.
I have no idea if its the same things for you, or if its even close... That's just what I thought of when I read your last comment.
By me, like when I was 12, I told one of my cousins that I was going to kiss them instead of kick them. In my head they have never forgotten and that and it still affects the way they see me. I've always been good at forgetting the things other people say...especially if it was a compliment.
ReplyDelete