Ahoy people. For the next few months this will be a blog devoted to thing I'm learning in Musical Theatre! This is exciting to me. First, because I've gotten out of the habit of sharing my life and I'm looking forward to attempting to do that; and secondly, because as bad as I am at it and it's a very good thing, especially in acting classes, to write down what you learn, what you feel and what you need to do to take the next step.
And starting with that last idea, I had the terrifying privilege to perform in my class today. It was my first performance and overall, I believe it went very well. I was confident in my choices, I was confident in the music, and I think I brought not just a good vocal performance, but a good acting one as well. I was proud of what I did because knowing me, I've struggled with confidence and preparation, especially in acting classes. (For those that don't know SUU kids bring it, and it's amazing and intimidating)
Of course, we don't learn anything if one simply congratulates themselves. So what I can improve on I'm excited to, because the issues immediately apparent are things I struggle with across all acting. (And life) First, while I can make strong choices I have an issue of committing to them. This fear stunts everything in my performance. It bars full access to the sound I can produce, it stifles my body movements, and denies the specificity required to fully achieve my goals as an actor..
Melinda, my professor, helped me realize first how much tension I was holding within myself. (Surprise!) I don't know if she even realized that; but just in the pushing to find energy for the physical commitment it was in itself an elimination of that physical tension that stood as a barrier. As physical tension dissipated lead to emotional tension making room suddenly more room to breathe and find the power in my voice appeared. However, Melinda pointed out, and I absolutely agree, there was still something holding me back from achieving the success that I truly desire.
And starting with that last idea, I had the terrifying privilege to perform in my class today. It was my first performance and overall, I believe it went very well. I was confident in my choices, I was confident in the music, and I think I brought not just a good vocal performance, but a good acting one as well. I was proud of what I did because knowing me, I've struggled with confidence and preparation, especially in acting classes. (For those that don't know SUU kids bring it, and it's amazing and intimidating)
Of course, we don't learn anything if one simply congratulates themselves. So what I can improve on I'm excited to, because the issues immediately apparent are things I struggle with across all acting. (And life) First, while I can make strong choices I have an issue of committing to them. This fear stunts everything in my performance. It bars full access to the sound I can produce, it stifles my body movements, and denies the specificity required to fully achieve my goals as an actor..
Melinda, my professor, helped me realize first how much tension I was holding within myself. (Surprise!) I don't know if she even realized that; but just in the pushing to find energy for the physical commitment it was in itself an elimination of that physical tension that stood as a barrier. As physical tension dissipated lead to emotional tension making room suddenly more room to breathe and find the power in my voice appeared. However, Melinda pointed out, and I absolutely agree, there was still something holding me back from achieving the success that I truly desire.
